i'm not a king but the queen

( sooner or later )

hairygrapes will no longer be posting here.adieu.
-voxy

the heat is killing me.and econs paper was like wtf. was writing about vaccines the whole time, didn't even draw in a graph.if i even pass,im gonna be one thankful bugger
 list of things to do :
1.DO AT LEAST 3 TIMED ESSAYS WEEKLY (this is for starters.)
2. consistent study-time means no music / computers / television / parents
4. don't get started on skype all over again (but i can't uninstall,i need it!)
5. take care. i'e been binging wayyy to much.gotta stop.i mean,the msg's going to kill me.chinese restaurant syndrom muchh!
6. take preventine every night.asthama's a bitch.
7. RUN YOU LAZY BUM, RUN
8. forget about having close friends in sch.just not worth the drama of the whole "girls' school girls thing".is it so wrong to be closer to guys?i just do as im not a type A girl.i get along better with most guys than girls.that's the it has been my whole life.and fuck it, im not going to steal your boyfriend,he's entitled to have friends too.right?
9. read pablo neruda before the book rots
 okay better stop.NOW.
gosh bye.

thank god for vesak day
i need to study but i don't know how to.not even how or where to start.
i guess now would be good
bye.

so,have i changed or not?
rockfest on tuesday, i want to see nisha and ram! peace sign,index down :)

pick that scab
pick it
it hurts
the raw red skin underneath
may bleed
careful now
it hurts
but not for long
like cloth,it will cover
all the imperfections
we have for offer.

i am too tired to wait.
like the flowers, too much wasted,but does anyone stop to see one fall?
 carry on this way,i happy to remain in stasis. its not as if you aren't either.
 and im going to be 19 in two days time.
for jer's sake ,i actually want these stuff

http://www.pocket-lint.com/news/news.phtml/19588/20612/Furry-ear-muffs-with-speakers.phtmlhttp://www.pocket-lint.com/news/news.phtml/19588/20612/Furry-ear-muffs-with-speakers.phtml
1. furry headphones.ok,earmuffs.but still soooooooo adorable!!!

and i don't know what else i want.so much for being a "materialistic bitch".

this is the first time that i skipped 4 entire schooling days (that my mom actually approves of)
the doctors at polyclinics are incompetent.this is a sweeping statement,given the fact that this is my first time going to one.but be your own judge. see, mr tan,i do know my engrish,very well,okay.

doctor: presses stethoscope to some chest region.
             your lungs sound okay.do you have any allergies.....

me:    interrupts doctor with a prolonged cough with gaspy, obviously asthmathy breaths.and it wasn't intentional.

doctor: oh,you seem to have asthma.do you take medication for it?

idiot.when you do that stethoscope thingy, you are supposed to ask the patient to breathe in and out. not just press anyhow.
i know this cos i'm a regular doctor-visitor.


i miss my GP.even if he threatens continually to tell parentals about substance abuse.

i'm dying for a new camera, some simple shitass thing, not the fancy dSLR  that everyone and his grandmother is toting about.
and this is the shit ass.go see this http://www.letitloose.com/
PIMP JUICE FTW!.
imma drugged, through and trough. and without painkillers, i'm sure to withring around in pain.
stupid bank a/c  = no $$$ = no Coldplay.
and farah went to see them, wtf, the last word on onfairness.
and mrs A. called me to say that i can actually take tmr off too, if i want.but nooooo, im going to school.but not for maths morning torture lessons, no waaaay!!!! 
since i cant watch coldplay in person, youtube will be my saviouuuuuurrr :0 im crap,i k
fucking love yellowwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!

( don't bother unless you know me )

i have something to blog about but i forgot about it.oh well.

i am such a bum.the only thing that  i have accomplished so far was

1. clean up room that resembled a bomb-exploded-on-it site
2. finish up my library books
3. actually finding them (shld be higher but lazy change.see what i mean?)
4. organizing my closet
5. finding rock shoes.stupid shoes caused me ingrown toenails thanks.
6. did 1/2 of my GP  homework
7. forgetting to change the wall clock battery
8. trying to fix the cpu, end up the reboot cd got stuck in the cd drive wth
9. doing 434905455484633 quizzes on FB
10. wasting even more time on FB
11. reading weird stuff online + cute overload
12. replying to ppl thinking tt i hv weird stuff gng on at 8 pm tmr.i gng to meet someone la, chill.
13. blogging

yes.
i waste my timeeeeeeeeeeee. and guess what?
the stupid A key is stuck so i need to hit it real hard.and it makes this annoying 'click' sound.EVERYTIME.
bye.
there's school tmr.omgomgomgomgomg.

of KL, kam him,yogi bear,bimbos,himbos and birthdays.
go to FB,most of it is there.

i've got nothing more to say.

i am tired of being nice.
i actually have feelings too.and i don't care about your family problems that are so trivial that you blow them out of proportion,like totally.
i have family stuff too.but i don't bother cluttering other people's brains with useless things.
and speaking about feelings,i don't like it too when people pretend.i'm not stupid.i just don't point out that you are obviously trying to get something out of me.
shit.
i'm fucking pissed.
i want  GOOD FRIEND. that will listen to the ramblings of  a tired idiot who can barely speak properly through her cracked lips.
its painful
kl trip was fun.j1 are fun.
now i feel like dying.
bye world,i'm digging my own hole.if you can understand what i mean la.numbskull.no wonder everyone hates you.

now is not the time
but they said heyheywhatever, just with the flowwwwwww
anyway
so many of my friends are retaking their A's,its surreal.
im damn scared la now,but im a lazy piggg.
i mean,farrrrrrrrhas to retake.he's like the mugger toad sia.never go simpang with us for damn long.
ahhhhh, sialah.
i dont know..
my mum told me" kau dah make the decision.live it up"
okla.i will study harder.takut nak mampus.somemore its the clever people who never study for O but can make it tau.
complacency?maybe.
dah.
man.
poly?
no way.
so....
see you at yishun safra on friday.
i want to climb,get shagged and sleep,knowing that i will do whatever it takes.
FASS NUS.dream.my goal.
i shall be there next year.insyaallah.

fuck off la world.
i feel dejected.
i didnt study very hard got distracted.still not studying.
my DM  fucking knows me too well now.and he acts fatherly.runawaynow.
i am not fucking popular when you mean infamous.it has different connotations.stop using big words when you don't know what it means, it pisses me off.
ineedastickbutimoncolddddddturkeyyyyyy for kl trip.sad life.maybe can sneak 1 tmr.
what the hell am i thinking, NO!
maths test, i know zilch, except that pdf is equals to and cdf is not.YAY.
nono, i don't like your bf, don't gimme the weird looks and sideway smile.gahhhh.im nt into younger guys,thankyouverymuch.
stick.
stick.
STIKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.
hate nico.niconicooooooooooooooooooooo...
what the hell does my mood mean,idk

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results day. it was amazing.really.i got pretty inspired.
arrrgghhhhh a-levels!!!!!

its 9 more days to common tests and i spent the week doing-nothing!!!!
great achievement alyya. now go back to doing maths.

so results are apparently next week,scary much
school's getting better, not necessarily cos im learning (im sleeping at almost every lesson,peppermint tea keeps me up)
i made bus friends, all j1 guys,all crazy assholes who spent 15 minutes huddling in a circle, discussing nipple pinching (yes!) and trying to see how much i can roll my eyes.
bt they are pretty sweet too.
bus buddies! hahahaha, primary school sia.cuteness.
meeting nawalicious tmr. benjamin buttttooonnnnn!!!!!!!!
i have a maths normal disributin test tmr and i have no idea what the heck its about.
want to go out and scream. really loudly.that someone looks like ah meng.
i uploaded pictures!!! happy happy!!!!!
i need to stop drinking coffee before headache starts. this is my 3rd cup.lets see how much more  i can take.
OK, I REALISED BUS BUDDIES SOUNDED DAMN GROSS.

ok,8tracks is awesome.i hate youtube, don't know what to watch so i go watch kenny vs spenny and end up being disgusted. i have absolutely no motivation to study.and my mom's persistently bugs me to get tuition.i don't want.
i have a deluded GP tutor.my ass is nicer than his face tau.i was having a seriously good naptime in the GP class luh.
i ran 10 rounds today.but i cheated a bit lah.
friends, i upload photos soon la, soon.tired sia today,

• the best thing that happened all day was the guys had their NAPFA
• so all the teachers were busy.
• we were supposed to run 2 will-run rounds,
• got lazy,walked 1 round and pretended to train for NAPFA.
• we went to gym okay, but it was full so no kick
• .so we went out,got bored and tried to play eagle and chicken.
• nope, didn't work.so someone had an idea : play monkey.
• Ann Na went to the squash area,found a toilet roll-OUR BALL!!!.
• played a while until LIM meng hock came and told us off.our punishment ? count the number of rounds the guys did. and it ws funny sia.
  
• like betting horses.mine came in 2nd, shahin's came in 1st. :)
• i like this kind of PE.

my computer sucks,big time. i want a mac.i want something that lasts. i want you to reply my msgs as fast as i reply yours.i want you to know.....
go die alyya. this is not the time and place.
angsty mood somemore.
but today has been a good day,so why why why?
am i being unfair?
long dist sucks.
ok, im gng back to econs.and there's maths lecture tmr, the horror of 1.5 hr of utter incomprehensibility.
lit night was good.
pics up when my comp feels like it, i.e. not lagging like some ahma liddat.
school school.
i am gng KL.camp 5 yo!!!!!